I have reached the end of the first week of my new job. This is the job I spent eight years retraining for (against my will as I was happy in the field I was in, but my mother was controlling and the education system when you move countries at the age of 16 is not a good experience, I do not recommend it at all).
Some people think because I went to university I had everything handed to me and spent ten years after I graduated making my life a living hell. Alternatively, some people think because I'm a single mother I have no ambition in life and I guess all my qualifications magically disappeared and made my life a living hell for ten years after I graduated. And then there were the people that thought because I'm a woman I didn't know what I wanted out of life or how to get it and made those ten years after I graduated a living Hell. At the end of December 2017 I was finally able to escape and put my life back to where I want it. With legal changes followed by cultural changes (as I wouldn't have been able to do it without those two things) I have spent four years getting to this point.
The next few weeks are going to be spent getting used to having a schedule. I know I was going out to a day job every week, but that was only a few hours. Freelancing was doing work as it came in. There was no sense of stability (which was the entire point of going to university). I would have been able to cope with that when I was younger and had more energy but those ten years.
As a result, I am not going to be as active on here or on social media for the near future. I have to prioritise getting used to the schedule and then fitting dancing and writing around that. I still don't draw on a schedule. When I accepted the job offer I spent ten hours fixing the website so it is easier for you to navigate and for me to update. The only section I didn't touch was "Press and Pictures" as that's going to take at least another ten hours. I will try and update at the weekends as I can during this transition.
Once I'm into a healthy routine then I'll start posting more frequently. It is a huge adjustment. I haven't really had a schedule since college. Yes I went to university. My class wasn't really one where the students showed up all that frequently. And yes, when I first started working a day job it was four days per week. I was constantly on edge, miserable and frequently in tears so that doesn't really count. I was also waking up at 5AM just to get in a few hundred words and then go around in circles arguing with people with cluster b personality disorders (seriously herding cats is easier).
I'm obviously much happier now. I'm on the path towards doing what I want to do and what I set out to do after finishing university (although those ten years should have been spent freelancing as I couldn't work with my mother the way she was and then I had a small child with no access to childcare, then by the end of the ten years I didn't have a reliable computer so it was still about 18 months before I was able to take clients after the unhappy sucky times ended). I know with the world the way it is currently and all the stress floating about one of the warnings to look for that something isn't right with someone is changing in their social media habits. My changes in habits are for all the right reasons and I feel better than ever (at least mentally, my long term health issue is still being a bitch, hopefully some weightloss will at least ease that a bit). Once I'm into a routine I will be bringing back my selfies. It won't be on a daily basis like they were but with leaving the house with more frequency I'm going to need to do something to protect against creeps.
Although the much longed for stability is in my near-future as I was living hand-to-mouth before I am really hurting for money, probably until that second paycheque. I know there's a cost of living crisis (probably with a recession, probably worse than 2009) but if you can help me out, either by donating money to cover bills or ordering me a grocery delivery that can be delivered on the weekend or between 6-8 PM weekdays I will really appreciate it. Contact me on social media for paypal or my address for groceries. I anticipate needing this last bit of help until the end of April or beginning of May (monthly pay but I don't know when exactly that pay day is). I will keep my Ko-Fi account open after that but I shouldn't require anymore help but someone else will. I will obviously make a big long gushy post when that day comes (I can see it, it is nearly here).
And finally, Tuesday the 15th sees Godless turn one. My one year godless anniversary isn't until next month so hopefully I'll have time to post then. But this Tuesday I have a book releasing along with a few others to celebrate. I won't be able to post about it on Tuesday but I'll hopefully have a chance next weekend. There's usually at least one book released on godless each day. I highly recommend downloading the app and turning on notifications so you don't miss anything. I will try to keep up with sharing Godless daily posts on my social media during this transition but I can't make any promises.
Some people think because I went to university I had everything handed to me and spent ten years after I graduated making my life a living hell. Alternatively, some people think because I'm a single mother I have no ambition in life and I guess all my qualifications magically disappeared and made my life a living hell for ten years after I graduated. And then there were the people that thought because I'm a woman I didn't know what I wanted out of life or how to get it and made those ten years after I graduated a living Hell. At the end of December 2017 I was finally able to escape and put my life back to where I want it. With legal changes followed by cultural changes (as I wouldn't have been able to do it without those two things) I have spent four years getting to this point.
The next few weeks are going to be spent getting used to having a schedule. I know I was going out to a day job every week, but that was only a few hours. Freelancing was doing work as it came in. There was no sense of stability (which was the entire point of going to university). I would have been able to cope with that when I was younger and had more energy but those ten years.
As a result, I am not going to be as active on here or on social media for the near future. I have to prioritise getting used to the schedule and then fitting dancing and writing around that. I still don't draw on a schedule. When I accepted the job offer I spent ten hours fixing the website so it is easier for you to navigate and for me to update. The only section I didn't touch was "Press and Pictures" as that's going to take at least another ten hours. I will try and update at the weekends as I can during this transition.
Once I'm into a healthy routine then I'll start posting more frequently. It is a huge adjustment. I haven't really had a schedule since college. Yes I went to university. My class wasn't really one where the students showed up all that frequently. And yes, when I first started working a day job it was four days per week. I was constantly on edge, miserable and frequently in tears so that doesn't really count. I was also waking up at 5AM just to get in a few hundred words and then go around in circles arguing with people with cluster b personality disorders (seriously herding cats is easier).
I'm obviously much happier now. I'm on the path towards doing what I want to do and what I set out to do after finishing university (although those ten years should have been spent freelancing as I couldn't work with my mother the way she was and then I had a small child with no access to childcare, then by the end of the ten years I didn't have a reliable computer so it was still about 18 months before I was able to take clients after the unhappy sucky times ended). I know with the world the way it is currently and all the stress floating about one of the warnings to look for that something isn't right with someone is changing in their social media habits. My changes in habits are for all the right reasons and I feel better than ever (at least mentally, my long term health issue is still being a bitch, hopefully some weightloss will at least ease that a bit). Once I'm into a routine I will be bringing back my selfies. It won't be on a daily basis like they were but with leaving the house with more frequency I'm going to need to do something to protect against creeps.
Although the much longed for stability is in my near-future as I was living hand-to-mouth before I am really hurting for money, probably until that second paycheque. I know there's a cost of living crisis (probably with a recession, probably worse than 2009) but if you can help me out, either by donating money to cover bills or ordering me a grocery delivery that can be delivered on the weekend or between 6-8 PM weekdays I will really appreciate it. Contact me on social media for paypal or my address for groceries. I anticipate needing this last bit of help until the end of April or beginning of May (monthly pay but I don't know when exactly that pay day is). I will keep my Ko-Fi account open after that but I shouldn't require anymore help but someone else will. I will obviously make a big long gushy post when that day comes (I can see it, it is nearly here).
And finally, Tuesday the 15th sees Godless turn one. My one year godless anniversary isn't until next month so hopefully I'll have time to post then. But this Tuesday I have a book releasing along with a few others to celebrate. I won't be able to post about it on Tuesday but I'll hopefully have a chance next weekend. There's usually at least one book released on godless each day. I highly recommend downloading the app and turning on notifications so you don't miss anything. I will try to keep up with sharing Godless daily posts on my social media during this transition but I can't make any promises.
Flowers from one of my day job clients on my last day.
above: first day selfie. below: end of first week.
I have to get used to wearing actual clothes again. No more pyjamas, except at night and on the weekends. Polyester is a bit scratchy. PS my skin is dry from the painkiller gel I use. It doesn't normally look like that.