​I saw this ad on Facebook today and thought it the best way to illustrate my post about tentacle porn. The tentacle porn has been programmed into the apps in Honey’s phone. 

Tentacle porn. Two words that sound remarkably well together in The Daisies That Open at Midnight. I just like the sound of the words next to each other. As an added bonus tentacle porn works incredibly well in this story. So well, it seems to be what The Daisies That Open at Midnight was missing. Finding that missing element because I’m fooling around with words and trying to find something that fits is a huge part of why I love this job. 

That said, I would like to remind everyone this is fiction. I have never in my life seen actual tentacle porn nor do I wish to. These stories are meant to have sensual parts as well as horrific and disgusting etc etc. Everyone is different. Some people are going to find some of the more disgusting elements sensual and some will find the sensual elements disgusting. And that is perfectly okay. What isn’t okay is projecting those desires onto me and then trying to enact them in real life. That’s sexual harassment territory. I’m an author doing a job I greatly enjoy, but it starts to lose its enjoyment when I’m dealing with people being creeps because “you wrote about it”. That really isn’t cool. It isn’t acceptable. 

Sometimes in writing, I like to write something that should be disgusting (tentacle porn) in a sensual way or a funny way, because that is art. And sometimes the words I choose are there because of how they sound in the overall piece. In the case of “tentacle porn”, I started weaving that into the story. 

I’m sure there are authors out there that get off on their books or have their fantasies published. I’m not one of them.

I finally have that new Mac so I can start to make multimedia projects, but first, I have to write a creature feature with Space Crabs, hence the lack of postings about Tainted Love/Push the Button. Once Space Crabs is done, it'll be a story with Faded Star and The Tentacle Queen or a story about the Tentacle Queen's daughters and more Ket Pandas. You can follow the notes for Push the Button/Tainted Love while I wrap up the Space Crabs novel on facebook.com/danibrownbooks.

Slowly getting back to everything after being unwell for all of last week. Before coming down with the lurgy, I had started to write about the parties in the Neon Dream when it was new. It is my 80s world, but most bad synthpop* and showtunes aren’t exactly going to supply the types of parties The Tentacle Queen/Gloria is throwing. I’ve added some Motley Crue to the playlist and will be adding more butt rock (just before the lurgy, I posted on my page asking for music video examples of 80s excess). 


*i wouldn’t call Duran Duran bad, but apparently a lot of you do. They are on the 80s excess playlist and occasionally come up on the bad synthpop. One of their songs was already on the playlist from the beginning of 2018, when I started making notes for the Dream Princess Sexbots.

The Girls With Hooks Where Hands Should Be wasn’t working for me today so I switched back to Neon Dream (working title, I think I might have one now, but want the story to develop a bit more).
I’ve added Rainbow to the playlist. I wouldn’t consider myself a Rainbow fan. I know I have the teeshirt and that is from when I saw Ritchie Blackmore because my ex is a fan. It was a great experience and kinda makes me wish I could build a time machine and go back to the 70s or whenever. When we saw Ritchie Blackmore, a piece of the rainbow didn’t light up. I don’t know what triggered that memory but I thought it would be a nice little detail for the Neon Dream and Faded Star’s stage show. 
Looking back now, no matter how much I enjoyed seeing Ritchie Blackmore at the time, the rainbow missing a light is kinda sad.
The Tentacle Queen has a bit of a Norma Desmond thing going on but there’s only so much I can draw from Sunset Boulevard. I’ve used the house repeatedly in writing (I won’t be using it in The Midnight Pumpkin Fucker in case anyone is wondering - that house is taken from one of my mother’s so-called friends). The Neon Dream is her world, where she kills angels and keeps her daughter and stepdaughter trapped. Everything is broken and old but the memories are still there lurking in the dust. Faded Star is old. He was young when the Neon Dream was young and this is a big part of his story (and what happens if you piss me off these days).
And to an extent, the Neon Dream is what happens when you force people to relive a past they have absolutely no interest in.

PS as I only posted what happens when you piss me off on my facebook page, I will still sometimes kill you in fiction, but what I'm more likely to do is look you up. Find out who you work for or with or your parents and then base a character off this person and put them in some nice sensual erotic scenes. 

posting this here and in the interview section...

I break down Placebo's Without You I'm Nothing and song-by-song, talk about how it influenced me. 

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I did watch Lords of Chaos. I’m going to need to watch it again. I was watching it for Ketamine Addicted Pandas, but the one-upmanship, total disregard for each other’s lives and general narcissism all round, will be good for Tainted Love/Push the Button.   Especially when it concerns characters who are grandiose and OTT extreme like Kord and Sassy. More subtle, vampire-type characters like the Tentacle Queen still cause extreme occurrences but in different ways. 

I did not view this film as truth. Perhaps with some therapy, major players in the scene who are still alive would be able to paint a more realistic view of what went on if they wished to do so. Narcissistic social circles are designed to create a lot of confusion about what really happened at any rate. 

Obviously I’ve had my own problems with narcissistic social circles. As far as I’m aware the members of the social circles and the odd “lone wolf” that I’ve had the unfortunate displeasure of dealing with haven’t murdered anyone or torched a church, but I wouldn’t put it past some of these people. 

I’ll have some more comprehensive thoughts after a second viewing. I am a fiction writer and not a psychologist or sociologist (although I know more than I wish to know about personality disorders) nor am I a musician or black metal historian. And I’m viewing the film through those lenses. 

And yes, I still view Vickernes as Eric Cartman. 

And while I’m here, a friend sent me this (at my request). As I am going to open the Tainted Love urban legend that I’m certain is going to end right on up in conspiracy theory territory, I figure, what the hell...might help with Tainted Love/Push the Button, especially with The Tentacle Queen. Please note, I’m only gathering material for the Illuminati and music industry right now, I’m not currently analysing it. I am currently going through music videos with creepy and out right disturbing imagery on my personal page. I’m still looking at power dynamics between (often female) singers and (often male) producers. 

I don’t often react to celebrity deaths, especially if I’m not what would be considered a fan, but Prodigy where there throughout my teens (my friends liked them and they’ve been pretty hard to miss over the years) and I would argue they had a huge impact on my art. Possibly larger than stuff I’m an actual fan of.

RIP Keith



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​I posted this yesterday on my page... 

And in today’s Tainted Love related post for anyone that is bored (I really cant go down the urban legend rabbit hole, last time I did, I lost 12 hours and staircases appeared in the Forest Of the Dead)... 

This comment was left on yesterday’s first Tainted Love post (asking for every version, I’m sure some have been missed)... 

“Possible urban legend. I've always heard through the grape vine that TAINTED LOVE was written by a Satanist who committed suicide.” 

The song was written by Ed Cobb and recorded by Gloria Jones in 1964, released in May 1965 (according to Wikipedia). 

Can anyone shed any light on this? I’m not looking for facts (according to Wikipedia, Ed Cobb died in 1999 of leukaemia), I want myth and folklore.

*edited to add: Marc Almond (who is still alive) might be mistaken as the original songwriter as I often hear Tainted Love as “the Soft Cell original” (released 1981).

...(07/02/19) I’m really trying not to go there. I think this will come out of urban legend territory (costing 12 hours) and right into conspiracy theory territory ending with the Illuminati. But, I can’t help but thinking maybe the comment was about Coil, which I think was the next version of Tainted Love to be released (1984) after Soft Cell’s. Coil’s Tainted Love is why there’s Crowley in Era Two (Push the Button/Tainted Love). John Balance died in 2004, Sleazy in 2010. 

This is what I think about when I’m not learning astrology. I’m taking it slow with the astrology thing. I’m going to retain it...unlike astronomy. Stupid quasars. I can’t remember what they are.