Somehow I find it hard to believe that 26k+ creeps know anything about literary cut-ups or actually enjoy the cut-up technique. In other words, if you missed me complaining about it, my youtube videos are showing up in the feeds that tend towards showing models getting ready. This has attracted a lot of unwanted attention from basement dwelling creeps. Not like models deserve that sort of attention and if they wanted it, well, that's what OnlyFans is for.
I work in marketing, so I really should know better. In addition to my actual career, I had this ex that would post rather inappropriate things about me on social media (one time, he took a picture of me while I was getting dressed and posted it on facebook, I didn't know for a few days because a- I have better things to do than constantly be on social media and b - he'd create a fucking mountain of problems for me so I was always putting out fires, I didn't exactly have the time to keep up with social media, needless to say when I finally found out I was absolutely infuriated, especially considering he would present himself as being pro-woman but would post something like that, if I wanted those pictures online I could post them myself), so I would often find myself arguing about how you can't control who sees what you post online and once it is up there, it is there forever. There's no turning back.
So, I have this horrible story of an ex using social media to hurt me and create problems for me. Then I have a career that involves knowing how to get eyes onto content. When I started posting videos on my youtube, the first three were all Christmas stories and I had been working in marketing for a few years by that point (as a freelancer). I wasn't really sure what I was going to do with my youtube account and I figured so much content gets posted there every day that mine wouldn't get any notice. Then when I started my full time job, I started to use youtube so I could embed things over here (I've never had a paid account that would allow that, to go paid, it would change my URL and I've used this one for years, so I don't want to do that). Again, lots of stuff gets posted on youtube every day, there's no reason why the algorithm would pick up my videos out of all the other videos, so I didn't pay any attention to search terms. I figured the only people that would see my youtube were people who arrived there through my website or other social media accounts (and maybe the odd stray).
But, the algorithm had other ideas. So I guess no more posting in my pyjamas. Make sure I look presentable. And most importantly, keywords. I'll be posting more content (I am aiming for one video per week, you may be approached for a flash fiction story because I don't want to just read my own stuff). And hopefully, within the next few months, my videos will be in the feeds of people who like fiction or experimental literature.
I will try to find the time to learn digital video editing. I just about tolerate analog editing so this is not going to be fun (although I enjoy my drawing tablet). Once my house is sorted out (there's some rising damp and rat-related loft problems, which involves a lot of repairs and at least two rooms to re-decorate), I'll sort out some proper lights and maybe even a backdrop.
As my skills improve, I will start putting multi-media projects on youtube (at least the ones that will translate to film). I guess I'll save my dancing for tiktok (which I should also sort out before the same thing happens there, that one was opened just to get some reviews for the Midnight Pumpkin Fucker from it and share them across my social media).
I work in marketing, so I really should know better. In addition to my actual career, I had this ex that would post rather inappropriate things about me on social media (one time, he took a picture of me while I was getting dressed and posted it on facebook, I didn't know for a few days because a- I have better things to do than constantly be on social media and b - he'd create a fucking mountain of problems for me so I was always putting out fires, I didn't exactly have the time to keep up with social media, needless to say when I finally found out I was absolutely infuriated, especially considering he would present himself as being pro-woman but would post something like that, if I wanted those pictures online I could post them myself), so I would often find myself arguing about how you can't control who sees what you post online and once it is up there, it is there forever. There's no turning back.
So, I have this horrible story of an ex using social media to hurt me and create problems for me. Then I have a career that involves knowing how to get eyes onto content. When I started posting videos on my youtube, the first three were all Christmas stories and I had been working in marketing for a few years by that point (as a freelancer). I wasn't really sure what I was going to do with my youtube account and I figured so much content gets posted there every day that mine wouldn't get any notice. Then when I started my full time job, I started to use youtube so I could embed things over here (I've never had a paid account that would allow that, to go paid, it would change my URL and I've used this one for years, so I don't want to do that). Again, lots of stuff gets posted on youtube every day, there's no reason why the algorithm would pick up my videos out of all the other videos, so I didn't pay any attention to search terms. I figured the only people that would see my youtube were people who arrived there through my website or other social media accounts (and maybe the odd stray).
But, the algorithm had other ideas. So I guess no more posting in my pyjamas. Make sure I look presentable. And most importantly, keywords. I'll be posting more content (I am aiming for one video per week, you may be approached for a flash fiction story because I don't want to just read my own stuff). And hopefully, within the next few months, my videos will be in the feeds of people who like fiction or experimental literature.
I will try to find the time to learn digital video editing. I just about tolerate analog editing so this is not going to be fun (although I enjoy my drawing tablet). Once my house is sorted out (there's some rising damp and rat-related loft problems, which involves a lot of repairs and at least two rooms to re-decorate), I'll sort out some proper lights and maybe even a backdrop.
As my skills improve, I will start putting multi-media projects on youtube (at least the ones that will translate to film). I guess I'll save my dancing for tiktok (which I should also sort out before the same thing happens there, that one was opened just to get some reviews for the Midnight Pumpkin Fucker from it and share them across my social media).
Above is me reading from my practice cut up and ranting a bit about creeps. Below is me reading my flash story Rats Scratched In The Linen Cupboard. Keep scrolling after that because I've posted the video that has caused the problems. If you have the time, please go tell the creeps to get lost. They're so gross!
I did become pretty used to creeps approaching me online when I was under immense stress and sometimes when I'm just having a bad day because they typically want someone under pressure who can't think for themselves (that's true for toxic women looking for friendship too), but they usually don't approach someone who is in a pleasant mood (unless it is to ruin it, I've met some sick fuckers). But either way, this behaviour is predatory. It is in a pretty murky area legally as well. I know when I'm already stressed, I can't consent to anything. I've seen creeps target women with depression and make that depression worse under the disguise of 'helping' and 'boosting self-esteem'. These basement dwellers are really messed up.
And on that thought, I'm going to get ready for bed. Should be asleep before midnight. I love what I do for a living (my actual career, reason why I went to uni etc etc) but those ten years of fighting to be allowed to work left me so exhausted it is unlikely I will ever have the energy levels to do much of anything again.
And on that thought, I'm going to get ready for bed. Should be asleep before midnight. I love what I do for a living (my actual career, reason why I went to uni etc etc) but those ten years of fighting to be allowed to work left me so exhausted it is unlikely I will ever have the energy levels to do much of anything again.
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